Feeling Inadequate

I can remember getting hired two years ago and my first thought being, “How did this happen?” I was convinced that the church had made some horrible mistake. On top of feeling like I was a bad hire, I was terrified to get started because I had no idea what I was doing. I thought, “Surely they will realize how awful I am at this job and fire me.”

Restless Nights

February, 2016 - I had just completed my first event in ministry. I can remember the event wrapping up, and I was finally able to go home. I got back to my apartment and just fell face down on my bed. I was overwhelmed with the feeling that I had failed. The event was much smaller than I had anticipated, and the lack of planning showed itself throughout the overall programming of the event. It was a horrible feeling. I tried to go to bed that night but could not stop tossing and turning. I was going back and forth asking myself what felt like a million questions: “Ty, did you do enough on the front-end of the event?”, “What if the entire event was a massive failure?” and “Should I even keep going?”

Transparency

For most ministry leaders, we spend a lot of our time walking with others through their best and worst days. Chances are you have spent some tough hours by a hospital bed or received that 2:00 a.m. phone call from a parent. Ministry is messy; it’s filled with moments of great victories and deep sorrows. You can get use to being the person that everyone depends on.