I have held back on writing on the topic of discouragement for two reasons. First, I still struggle with discouragement. Second, total transparency scares me. Neither reasons are good enough for me to not write this, so here it goes.
I am always blown away by the great lessons that God teaches me as I travel and speak at different events. I try to always learn something new as I have the opportunity to meet new people at these events. I want to share a few lessons that I learned while speaking at an event in Brenham, Texas.
I promised myself that I would never do a Lock-In. I told all of my leaders, students, and friends that I would never give in. Well, I gave in. I scheduled, plan, and hosted my first Lock-In.
Why did I decide to host a Lock-In?
I can remember getting hired two years ago and my first thought being, “How did this happen?” I was convinced that the church had made some horrible mistake. On top of feeling like I was a bad hire, I was terrified to get started because I had no idea what I was doing. I thought, “Surely they will realize how awful I am at this job and fire me.”
February, 2016 - I had just completed my first event in ministry. I can remember the event wrapping up, and I was finally able to go home. I got back to my apartment and just fell face down on my bed. I was overwhelmed with the feeling that I had failed. The event was much smaller than I had anticipated, and the lack of planning showed itself throughout the overall programming of the event. It was a horrible feeling. I tried to go to bed that night but could not stop tossing and turning. I was going back and forth asking myself what felt like a million questions: “Ty, did you do enough on the front-end of the event?”, “What if the entire event was a massive failure?” and “Should I even keep going?”
For most ministry leaders, we spend a lot of our time walking with others through their best and worst days. Chances are you have spent some tough hours by a hospital bed or received that 2:00 a.m. phone call from a parent. Ministry is messy; it’s filled with moments of great victories and deep sorrows. You can get use to being the person that everyone depends on.